Thursday, September 24, 2015

Burial Sermon

Sara Irwin was Paula's priest and friend...
Her homily was very personal and moving...she added to this, but here is the written part...
Everyone that knew Paula learned from her. I just now learned how put the photos (randomly selected, I'm afraid, and without her keen sense of finding just the right one) in between blocks of text.

There is a section in one of the addenda to the Episcopal Book of Common prayer politely titled The Burial of one who does not profess the Christian faith. You can have whatever reading you want at a funeral, and it really doesn’t matter what part of the Bible it comes from. So the headings are not important. But when I was putting things together to talk with Darrell about what to do today I just kind of caught on that expression. To profess the faith. To believe it, to say it out loud, to identify. Paula’s relationship with the Christian faith was just never as simple as professing it. When she was preparing for confirmation, Paula made a comment about how the cross inscribed on her forehead when she was baptized as a child had endured there, without her knowing it, an invisible claim made by God on her. That claim followed her and held her, when at moments she would have professed something pretty different from the traditional creeds of the institutional church.

Whatever she professed, Paula’s faith, however, I would trust to pray me out of the belly of any whale, as our first opening acclamation from the book of Jonah said. Paula’s faith was in unfathomable beauty and grace and clarity and vision and justice and peace. Paula’s spiritual life was that of a theologian, as in the classical understanding that defines theology as “faith seeking understanding.” Paula’s faith was always, always, always seeking understanding. And as I think about her faith, she was one of the most Christian, most theologically grounded person I’ve ever met. She did not simply believe, as though a crowd of people in a stone building saying words together could make them true. She interrogated and imagined and made poetry out of the most random shards of life. She wrote in her blog once about Jesus as the chimera of eternity and history. The chimera of eternity and history. She was never sure of how, exactly, to believe in Jesus—but I am sure she knew him.

What has come into being in the Word was life, and the life was the light of all people. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.

It might be a little weakly transparent to use imagery of Word and light at the funeral for a poet. It might a tad too obvious to talk about how Words and Light are part of the reality of God at the funeral of a poet and photographer. The work of poetry and photography is to hold time still, just for a moment. It’s to say “Look, here! Something important is here!” But that was part of how Paula was a theologian. I remember once when we setting up for Good Friday services. We set up a huge wooden cross next to the baptismal font for Lent, and part of preparing for Good Friday is to cover all the crosses with black veils. So you cover it and tie it at the bottom under the cross bar. And the first year we had the big wooden cross Paula asked me what I thought. This was not long after the photographs had been released of the atrocities in Iraq and I kind of shook my head and said, “I think it looks too Abu Ghraib.” And she said “Well, is that bad? Isn’t that the point?” Which, of course, is exactly the point. She got it, whether or not she always claimed it. The point of Good Friday is to say that God is able to face the worst of humanity, not to shy away from it, but to enter into our violence and say that it does not have the last word. The violence and suffering of the world are always defeated by the love of God.

Paula had an amazing gift for the particular, for the things of life in this world. When Paula found her way into helping with the altar guild, a solitary ministry done for the community, but completely alone—she said it was her anchoress work, like Julian of Norwich having visions in her little church hermitage. She took it on with such astonishing precision and understated grace that when she left, suddenly everyone realized how we’d all be unconsciously leaning on her to straighten us out behind the scenes. Where was the screw that somehow transforms a paschal candle into an advent wreath? Everything, though, came from this amazing core of dedication and rigor. She would get here at 8am in a blizzard, just in case someone else showed up for church and I needed help (not many did).

This piece from John this, too, is a story of creation and origin. It’s not Jesus born in a stable, and it’s not Adam and Eve walking in the garden. Those stories tell us one thing, and this one tells us quite another. This one reminds us where we have come from, and the One to whom we belong. The one whom Paula sought and sought and wanted and desired after, who sought and sought and desired after her. This is the scandalous story of the Christian faith—that God chooses humanity and pitches a tent here with us, in the person of Jesus. Jesus turns over tables and casts out demons and heals and does all of these wild things with all the wrong people. And the powers of empire and the world just cannot handle it. You just don’t act like that with no consequences. The world does not work that way. It still doesn’t.

And all the power of the empire that can’t imagine such love nails him to a cross. And the love doesn’t stop. His friends see him. He eats with them. They find him when they are together. And this love that couldn’t be defeated by death continues. In them, and through eons and days and over years through shadows, and brings us here. To this love and grief, terrifying and beautiful. The same love that moved mountains is the love that catches us, and catches Paula. It is that invisible seal on her forehead, the crown on her forehead, and the bond that will keep our hearts and hers united in God’s love forever.


Edward Fenning said...

The Reverend's sermon, is a tribute towards appreciating and understanding Paula's search for beliefs that matched as close as possible to her feelings about God and goodness, and the goodness in all human beings and here on our Earth. It was also a tribute of profound admiration, written with great love and friendship.

The sermon made a great impression on me - by the Reverend's emotional involvement in writing it, and reading it aloud, and of course its content: how the sermon really spoke so well, explaining and appreciating Paula's questioning and search, for beliefs that matched what she thought that God and religion should be about.

Paula was just plain brilliant, sincere, and wishing goodness for all people. Rest in Peace Paula, and know that you are appreciated and cared about by your friends, and a wider circle of people and appreciated your "good works" towards all.

Forsythia said...

Thank you for printing the sermon from Paula's funeral. I am sure I speak for others as well as myself when I say we were so fortunate--blessed, actually-- to have known this remarkable woman through her blog and her photographs.

Anonymous said...

Paula's faith was as solid and as inquisitive as her priest states here. It can't surprise me, a longtime reader here, that Paula inspired this kind of writing and devotion in person as she did with her photographs and writing. I've received so much out of her writing over the years. I miss her very much, and I'm very thankful that her blog is still here.

ruidh said...

I was browsing my Twitter following list and saw an avatar I hadn't seen in a long time. I followed a link in the profile to discover that today was the anniversary of her funeral.

May she rest in peace and rise with the saints in glory.

Unknown said...

Let this be your catalyst to Seventh-Heaven:

'The more you shall honor Me,
the more I shall bless you'
-the Infant Jesus of Prague
(<- Czech Republic, next to Russia)

Love him or leave him or indifferent...
better lissen to the Don:

If you deny o'er-the-Hillary's evil,
which most whorizontal demokrakkrs do,
you cannot deny Hellfire
which YOU send YOURSELF to.

Yes, earthling, I was an NDE:
the sights were beyond extreme.
Choose Jesus.
You'll be most happy you did.
God bless your indelible soul.